When did everything become, so uh. Whats the word? Dysfunctional? Can you say that again? Not within my house but within my mind, i usually have it all figured out. But right now, this month, this weeks, ive been lost have nothing to show from it. Was i finally completed? Nahh thats a joke. Fuck you, you fucked with my mind just like the last person. But in the end you don’t give two fuckss, so why em i stuck? All i wanted was for you to show me you cared. But apparently you didn’t. Are you scared? Becuz you finally realized you found something that wasn’t gonna brake you down into crying. Or? Was i the one scared? Who cares aways? I don’t. but surly that was lie, & so was everything i said about me being okay, cuz damn it, im fucking NOT! This is the worst. Everytime i see you, i wannna kick you. But unfortunately, i wouldn’t. I wish i could you the way you hurt me, but iknew if i had the chance, i wouldn’t. Why was this such a big deal? In my mind i hated you, but my heart is fighting with my mind & this time, just like every other time, i have to listen to mind in the end, no matter how much i wanted my heart to be right, just like always it is wrong. “Listen to your heart” is all ive ever heard. But your heart gives you the wrong advise. & your mind, the thing most people hate using, is the right, always right. stop trying to fight it Heather, an affort would have been made if anyone of them had really cared, & you will always know that. I guess, i reallyy don’t hate you. I mean everything happens for a reason, i just feel hurt & there is a huge motherfucking difference. I wanna hate you but, but i just can’t. But i do blame you.